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What Have I Done?

Grand Providentia Projections” update – Originally published in September 2022

This is not a question that I’ve posed with any personal angst attached to it. As in, ‘OMG, what have I done?’. No, this is basically a self-inquiring question that I need to externalize the answers to through the act of writing them down. It is a question that I’ll begin to answer today and finish answering, well, maybe never. It may help some readers of this blog to understand what I’ve done mentally, physically and spiritually in the recent past to keep things moving forward. I’ll describe some of the actions I’ve taken, decisions I’ve made, and dreams I’ve conjured to continue moving toward the realization of the grand dream that I’ve been working to manifest for the past fifteen years. To catch some of you up, the grand dream is to bring conscious awareness of, and attract membership to, the Alt Unity. As the Alt Unity grows, through its creative collaborations and collective conscious intentions, the Grand Providentia Projection will be made manifest. And while the Alt Unity is in the process of manifesting the GPP, we will concurrently produce a rolling factual documentary that is focused on our efforts. Simultaneously, we will also be creating a fictional account (past, present and future) that will tell an imaginative, surrealistic story based on our real-world efforts. As each of the storylines unfold, the factual and the fictional will be brought together and united as one, thus creating the ultimate production of “A True Story, as Yet Unfolding…” So, in answer to the question – What have I done? I will tell you what I’ve done, and what I’ve been doing, during the recent months of practicing presence in the moment of now.

Jim Thorpe, PA – Tybee Island, GA

I decided back in January of 2022, to pursue a graduate degree (MFA), majoring in film and television, at the Savannah College of Art & Design in Savannah, GA. Having received my undergraduate degree (BFA), majoring in computer animation, from the Ringling College of Art & Design in Sarasota, FL, I thought that this would be a fitting way to culminate my career in the field of visual arts. After all, much of what I’d learned at Ringling College is directly applicable to the design and production of film projects. Early in the process of applying to SCAD, I realized that I was missing one critical tool that I would need to buy, if I could even hope to be accepted into the program. You see, one of the requirements for the application is a portfolio film reel (maximum ten minutes long). So, I knew I needed to get my hands on a high-quality camera to shoot the portfolio reel. I have to confess that I almost allowed fear to defeat me before I ever got started. I had a very minimal understanding of film cameras at the time, so I was intimidated by them, but then I thought back to when I entered the computer animation program at Ringling, and I remembered having absolutely no experience with computers. Whether it’s a camera, a computer, a calculator or a clock, you can’t expect to understand how to use it until you get some experience by using it. It took me a couple of months to gather the money to get it, but get it, I did. For any camera enthusiasts out there, it’s the Blackmagic Design Pocket Cinema 4K.

The model is considered a good option for beginner filmmakers and students of film, but it is not a professional level camera. Of course, buying the camera was just the beginning. I needed to purchase all sorts of other accessories, like lenses, tripods, lavalier microphones, camera bags and digital storage devices. During the six months following my decision to return to school, I was intently focused on making the logistical arrangements to move from Allentown, PA to Savannah GA, but I was also starting production on the portfolio film that I needed for SCAD. Before moving south, I made a trip north to Hope, Rhode Island, to shoot my very first film clips for the portfolio film which I titled “Return to Hope” when it is was completed. The film features the Hope Mill in its current deteriorated state, but the overall theme of the film is decidedly positive. I’ll give a more detailed description of “Return to Hope” in one of my future blog entries. I’ll end this entry with a logistical announcement: On August 1st, I arrived in Savannah, and on the second attempt I found a roommate situation in a shared apartment that works for both me and my roomie. I’m quite comfortable here in Georgia and I especially love the historic district of Savannah (that’s where the college is located). Below is a link to the finished portfolio film “Return to Hope”.

One other announcement: I started a podcast as a companion site to this blog. I’ve only posted two short episodes so far, but I’ve really enjoyed the process of producing them. There will be many more episodes to come. Including video podcasts, as well. https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/scott-joseph-moore/episodes

A True Story, as Yet Unfolding..., Film Journey

Winding the Way to Grand Providentia

Scene 1

Harmony is crouched, fingers clenched tightly to the cold metallic rim of the observation port. She is completely transfixed by what she’s seeing. She snatches a passing thought, ‘What is happening right now is not as simple as seeing, this is more akin to witnessing.’ And what she’s witnessing, is so far outside the realm of her previous experience, that she can only relate to it as being too far out there, way beyond the border of any run of the mill spiritual revelation. Harmony’s eyes are most certainly sending signals to her brain, but her brain seems to be rejecting those signals, one after the other, and without exception. She feels as though her mind is stuttering. Her brain is refusing to generate a coherent description of the visual information as it is being received. Her mind feels overwhelmed, overtaxed, overheated. Harmony fires out a desperate prayer that she won’t pass out. And then… She does.

Total blackness, and then, two pinpoints of light. They’re polychromatic and they appear to be at arm’s length. Or they could be miles away, like automobile headlights on a dark horizon. The lights don’t seem to be getting closer though, instead they are spreading outward, and fast. The pinpoints become dots and the dots become disks, the disks expand until they collide, integrate, and wash over her field of vision. And all at once, as if she had never lost consciousness, Harmony finds herself crouched, in the same position she had been, her white-knuckled hands, aching, her wide-open eyes still mesmerized by the dazzling light show before her. The waves of spectral color seem to be infiltrating, melding with, and extricating themselves from the molecular matter of the ceramic-clad surface on the inside of the energy containment tank. Almost as if the entire inner lining of the tank is one enormous cuttlefish. Harmony has looked through the viewport on this tank thousands of times over the past five years, always hoping to see some sign of success; some indication of stored energy. She suddenly realizes that she might have given up hope for success long ago, just as many of her friends, and most of her family, had given up on her. What she was now witnessing was so much more than redemption, so much more than success. This was indisputably miraculous!

Author’s note: As an integral part of the “True Story, as Yet Unfolding…”, the previous scene should be considered fictional creative writing. It is but one element of the continuous documentary we will be producing through the Alt Unity. While we should consider it fiction for now, I have an uncanny feeling that it may migrate to the factual side once the Grand Providentia Projection is underway.

Film Journey & The Alt Unity

Welcome to Our Now!

Gathering Awareness – Entry #1

I am sincerely grateful for your presence in this moment! I’m even more grateful that you’ve chosen to spend a moment of our time reading this blog. Thank you!

Now is our time. It is our only time, so I’ll make this as brief and painless as possible. Please attempt to put aside the worries of the world in this moment. I know it’s difficult, because it’s something that I need to practice from one moment to the next, and the next, and the next. To be IN this moment, I believe it’s necessary to consciously decide to be OUT of other moments. Moments that have already past and moments that are yet to arise are irrelevant in this moment. Please choose to let go of the past and future for just a moment. It may mean that you’ll need to quiet the voice in your head, momentarily. That voice (your ego) will immediately try to distract you with regrets about the past or fond memories from the past that you might hope to relive. Ego will warn you that fearful things might happen to you in future moments, if you get distracted by the moment we are in right now. The ego feels threatened when you are present and aware, because ego insists on absolute control. When you are present in this moment, past and future moments are inconsequential, until you return your conscious focus on them, and in effect, you become unconscious and unaware once more. And when you choose to return to unconsciousness, aware only of your past and future, the ego regains control of your thoughts and reinforces the idea that the present moment is insignificant, while all the past and future moments are the only ones you should be concerned with. Your ego deceives you into thinking that past moments you’ve experienced sum up your life story until now. And furthermore, your ego wants you to believe that your future is dictated by those past moments, which, by the way, were undeniably present moments when you experienced them! So, if you can call out the ego and expose its mind games for what they are, you’ll be well on your way to experiencing the unlimited potential of this current moment. Welcome to our now!

Film Journey & The Alt Unity

Where Are We?

Gathering Awareness – Entry #2

On many occasions during this lifelong journey, I’ve asked the question (usually to myself) ‘Where am I?’. Far less often, I’ve asked the question ‘Where are we?’. Does this mean I’m self-absorbed, inconsiderate or narcissistic? Perhaps. More likely though, it is a basic instinctual inquiry, founded in the desire for self-assurance, and pursued with the end-goal of finding profound meaning and purpose in this existence.

Industrial Obsolescence” – from the Hope Mill collection

A few moments ago (yesterday), I invited anyone and everyone who was interested, to join me in the current moment. I asked for the courtesy of your presence in the moment of now. I asked if you could put aside worries and fears for a moment, and just be present. That invitation remains open for eternity. The invitation is made in every moment, to every human being that is open to accepting it. It is made by Life itself. Readers of this blog did not require my invitation to be present. Our capacity for presence is as open and unconditional as love, compassion, empathy or any other innate human characteristic. More often than not, it is fear which blocks our ability to be present. Fear opens the door to a broad range of distractions and perceptual distortions that can make it seem impossible to maintain presence, even for a moment.

So, when I ask the question ‘Where are we?’, I am not questioning our current physical position on the planet. Instead, I am asking where we stand in terms of present awareness. Are we lost in yesterdays, wrapped up in tomorrows, or are we here and now, facing life’s constant change with hopeful hearts and an indelible sense of wonder about where we’ll be in the moments yet to come. Please join me in the Now.

Film Journey & The Alt Unity

What Comes of Our Moments Past?

Gathering Awareness – Entry #3

It’s been said many times, in many different ways, that the only time we ever really have, is right now. If that’s the case, why do we behave as if the past and the future are just as real, and just as deserving of our attention, as is the current moment? In my experience, the most meaningful answer to this question is provided by our intuition. We learn early in life that our motivations, our intentions and our actions in each successive moment will bring either negative consequences or positive rewards at some point during the moments that follow. We may not even be consciously aware that we know this, but intuitively we perceive this principle to be a basic truth in our shared reality. To put this in simpler terms, we are intuitively aware of our ability to manifest future circumstances through our actions and intentions in the now. Whether we choose to practice these intuitive abilities of manifestation or not, is entirely up to us.

Trouble x Two = The Black Cats of Jim Thorpe, PA

So, what comes of our moments past? In my own understanding, they become the raw materials that are used to weave the very fabric of our individual and our collective lives. We are now experiencing the resulting circumstances and situations which were born of a multitude of human intentions, both positive and negative, sent forth during the past moments of human existence. Depending on your outlook, the basis of this proposition might be welcomed as incredibly positive or rejected as extremely negative. Some of us will undoubtedly be inclined to point the finger of blame toward others in an attempt to explain the entire nature and substance of where they are in the now. Especially those who experience life as a hardship or something to be suffered through. Others will insist they have absolutely no control over the direction of their life journey. They’ll posit that they’re the helpless victims of an unfair reality. They’ll further claim that the ‘world’ they were born into is disinterestedly dictating every quality and quantity of circumstance available to them during their lifetime. Personally, I must admit that I have cloaked my persona with a blend of these two outlooks for a sizable portion of this life journey. At least until I came to the understanding that I am completely responsible for my own intentions, and directly accountable for my own actions, during every moment, past and present. I have introspectively embraced the outlook which holds that intentions put forth in past moments, whether they were put forth individually or collectively, are experienced as objective and subjective manifestations in this, the present moment.