Awakening

Let it Flow, let it Flow, let it Flow…

While cooking eggs this morning, I was blindsided by a sudden and glaring self-awareness. A passing thought brought with it an unavoidable wake-up call. It was a thought that screamed ‘You are living your life like a fugitive! Stop this immediately!’. My shaking hand nearly dropped the spatula fully loaded with hash browns. I wanted to protest, but I knew I was toast. In truth, I knew that I was beyond toast. I was a burned piece of stale bread in the trash. There was no defense to offer. The case had closed as soon as it was opened. In a vision that can’t be unseen, its clarity eternally sharp, I stared with horror at the current state of my existence. I’ve been absolutely living like a fugitive, and this behavior absolutely needs to stop!

“What are you lookin’ at, Eggs!”

Let the banners be raised, and all in favor of stopping unhealthy behavior, say EYE! And how do I know that this fugitive mentality is unhealthy? Because it limits the totality of the man that I refer to as me. It curtails my inborn ability to present to the world the best of who I am and what I have to offer. If I choose to remain hidden, it is unlikely that I will be found, even by my own sense of purpose. And why, you might ask, have I been living like a fugitive? You may as well pose this question to the eggs I was cooking, because I can’t see reason, although I have been looking. You recommend I seek counsel, to evaluate my self-appraisal. Well, I say, it’s as plain as day that I’ve been hiding away, and the only solution is to adopt a resolution to put aside my pride and walk outside.

“This Terra is Not So Firma”

Now walking. Now learning. Now growing. With a farm-fresh perspective, hard won through the many misguided adventures of an explorer without eyesight, I’ve arrived at the understanding that I’ve done nothing wrong. At least not wrong enough to continue living this life like a fugitive.

Thank you, readers, for returning again and again to read this True Story as it unfolds…

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Simple Bird Song

Three notes to lift the veil, three to open cage door, the rest to set free heavy hearts wanting more. 

The spring cardinal sings, and all healing resounds, notes venturing forth to find new fertile grounds.

Bird song will remind us to join in the chorus, there is joy in a moment, and it’s waiting before us.

Riding waves of spring bird notes and life’s smallest treasures, healing tides sooth our shores with sweet salty pleasures.

Wake to a new day, let the swan song be done, sing with the free birds and dance in the sun.

Wait not for tomorrow, heed the birds of today, their beckoning melodies may soon fade away.

Scott Joseph Moore

PA ParkSpring speaks of rebirth in myriad ways, harmonize with Spring’s spirit and be reborn.

When we disavow our intimate connection with the natural world, we not only betray our own body’s ability to heal itself, but we also risk losing a vital aspect of our physical and spiritual life force. We may one day lose the ability to harmonize our energies with those energies that are orchestrating the symphony of life. For those of us who feel nothing when the sounds of springtime fill the air, I am truly sorry for your loss. I can only hope and pray that you’ll hear the soothing sounds, on one fine day.

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Compassion Brings Purpose to Life

Compassionate human beings are sensitive to the suffering of others. They attend to the struggles of their fellow travelers, often because it brings meaning and purpose to their own journey. Compassionate human beings are also sensitive to the joy of others. Making connections and nurturing relationships brings fulfillment and happiness to those of us who, through a mutual desire to find meaning, rise up together, to face the day to day challenges of our lives. Joy and suffering are both part of the human condition. These conditions are inseparable, in that a person cannot experience the former without having experienced the latter. As one who learns through the myriad experiences of the journey, I would no sooner give up the hardest trials of my life, than I would the most treasured celebratory occasions. Without appreciation for both, I could be grateful for neither.

DarkNLightThrough the challenges and victories of our compassionate life experiences, we are inspired to growth, encouraged to excellence.

Many of my regular readers may be wondering what this has to do with Wednesday’s blog post, in which, I wrote about the Artists Against Trump Exhibit and my experiences in New Hampshire, where we displayed the show in a public park. I went on to express my intentions of returning to a primarily apolitical existence, as was my nature before co-producing the exhibit. Well, for those of you who are wondering about the connection between compassionate living and the exhibition of volatile, possibly even dehumanizing artwork, I will continue today’s post with the following declaration of intention – In my decision to create the original Trump bust likeness, and following through to the showing in New Hampshire, I’ve maintained a constant awareness of my attachment to, and internal identification with, the artwork itself. In other words, I remained consciously aware of the potential damage the undertaking might have on my own compassion toward fellow human beings, including supporters of Donald Trump, and even Trump himself. Moral degradation of humanity is not something that I want to be involved with, nor party to. I prefer to uplift others, rather than tear them down. I find purpose and meaning in my life through compassionate interactions with other people. I find joy in the experience of unconditional love.

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In conclusion, I’ve learned much about myself and others through the creation and exhibition of this artwork. I’ve learned that freedom of expression is inextricably connected to a personal responsibility for the expression’s consequences. If the viewpoint being expressed compromises my own moral integrity, then I need to know when and where to draw the line. Through introspection, I have discovered that the world of politics is not in harmony with the ideals that I aspire to. Politics are divisive, while I am seeking unity. National Leaders seemingly seek to dominate and control their citizens, while I seek beneficial alliances and mutual respect from mankind. I’ve often been admonished as a dreamer. I’ve been told that I am unrealistic and naive about the way this world works. If human decency, compassion and unconditional love (as ideals) are truly unrealistic in this lifetime, then why do I feel most alive when I practice them?

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My Honey, Mamma Jean, and Your’s truly.

Life on earth is so beautiful, such a treasure to be appreciated. It’s also a fleeting experience, with a limited amount of time to enjoy the journey. It can be as meaningful and fulfilling as we can imagine it. It can also be as terrifying and treacherous as our fears can color it. Why would we choose to write the book of our lives without including a happy ending? Why would we paint a picture of this day without using the colors that bring us joy?

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“Procreation” (1995?) oil on canvas 

Thank you for reading the Grand Providentia United – Online Journal! I am currently working towards the goal of re-energizing the Grand Providentia Art Project. This is an evolutionary, collaborative, and all inclusive creative expression, powered by positive conscious human intentions. In the coming months and years, I’ll be looking for all the help I can get to make this dream a reality. I’ll be putting out the call for assistance soon, but in the meantime, if you’re inclined to, please send positive thoughts and prayers toward this humanitarian movement.

 

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Finding True Purpose in the Light

As I awoke from a fitful sleep this morning, I experienced a deeper understanding of my own relationship with the Light of Ages. Upon rising to meet the new day, I saw clearly the reason for my restless dreams, and I also better understood my personal preference to live in the Light. For many years during my youth I flirted with darkness and negativity. I thought that I could stand against anger, violence and hatred, if only I kept the Light of love and peace bright in my heart. At the same time I was attracted to the darkness because I thought I would miss out on the excitement and adventure of a life lived on the edge. After more than a decade of loneliness, frustration and emotional pain in my late teens and early twenties, I found myself backed against a wall of despair, in a dark prison cell, that I alone had created. I had lost track of the light within, and all was dark, inside and out. Through a near death experience, brought to me by the strangling hands of the last so-called friend who could tolerate my dark tendencies, I was able to find my way back into the gray area between lightness of being and the dark night of my soul. It took close to twenty years for me to fully recover the light I had regularly experienced as a child. During my search for redemption, I married the woman I intended to spend this lifetime with, and fathered two amazing children. I found purpose and self-acceptance in my roles as a husband and father. I even managed to forgive myself for my past failings and personal shortcomings. I became quite certain that the light of my spirit had defeated the darkness within and was holding at bay the darkness without, and so, I would never be required to wage battle with it again. My certainty was ill-conceived, however, because the energy of darkness has its own seasons, its own priorities, independent of the Light which helps to define it. Darkness waits in timeless anticipation for the passing of the Light of Ages. While we stoke our passionate fires, with hopes and dreams of self-preservation, the darkness lingers beyond the firelight, waiting for the rains to come. We are schooled by forces both dark and light. Today, when I awoke to another day of precious life, I reconfirmed my loyalty to the Light of Ages. I live in hope, that the Light of Life will eternally rule over the darkness of despair.

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The year of 2020 can be a year of balance, rebirth and redemption for the entire human race. I embrace the gift of life, today and always.

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The Benefits of Embracing Change

We all live in a reality that is defined, perhaps even brought into being, by external and internal, perpetual change. Without change, there would be no way for us to perceive the passage of time. The concepts of past, present and future, are perceived of in terms of comparative experiential changes, in truth those very same changes are weaving the fabric of each individual’s life experience. Change happens, whether we as individuals, are in agreement with it, or not. The entire record of human history, would be unexpressed, were it not for perpetual change. All growth and decay, chaotic disruption and divine order, are forms of natural and everlasting change.

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Despite all of this, many human beings enter into a lifelong power struggle with change. We either fear change, so we are constantly running and hiding from it, or we attempt to dominate it, by forcing our will upon the inevitable changes, hoping to sway the tides of change toward our own personal preferences. In my experience, both of these strategies are a setup for frustration and defeat.

DisturbedAll things and experiences are passing, ephemeral. All castles built with the sands of time eventually dissolve and return to the cosmic sandbox, to be reformed, regrouped and presented anew, somewhere further down the timeline.

This line of thought, invariably leads me to the conclusion that the healthiest strategy in dealing with change is to not only to accept it as part of our reality, but to completely embrace it and enter into its natural flow. Harmonizing with perpetual change can be liberating, exhilarating and effortless. Once we overcome the fear of losing our perceived control over the future, we also become wise to the idea that we were only fooling ourselves, thinking we could control external changes in the first place. It is here that I will insert the idea that we are all completely in charge of internal change, while external change exists on a plane which is beyond our control. However, when we are in harmony with external change and see it for what it is – inevitable, we can then devote more of our time and effort toward making changes within ourselves that are energetically in tune with the natural and perpetual change all around us. We can naturally become one with perpetual change, thus releasing the full bounty of potential benefits to our ever-changing life journeys.

ProsperWhen we were children, before we started regularly enforcing our will upon the world we lived in, we were more apt to view change as exciting and beneficial. As we grew older, and realized that all our expectations weren’t being met, many of us began to look at change with dread and fear, hoping only to survive it. By changing the way you perceive change, positive rather than negative, I truly believe that you can see through a child’s eyes again. Seeing change as a natural progression. Seeing it as healthy. Seeing it as growth. Seeing change as a lifelong companion on the highways and byways of your life’s journey.